I want to write it down as my memory is still fresh.
We have finished nine days of filming with the feature film Love Stalk 愛‧打卡 as of today with a couple of shooting days left and there are still a lot to be done. There were numerous obstacles along the way, but we managed to get through them in one piece so far. I’ve been on edge and I’m trying to keep myself under control, hoping I will be a dormant volcano that will never erupt.
Some people wonder why I produce and act in Love Stalk 愛‧打卡. There have been a lot of speculations. There’s no need to guess. Let me tell you why. Since I had cancer seven years ago, my philosophy towards life changed. Being successful in career is important but is never as important as health and happiness. It seems to most people that I’m trying to do a lot in a short time. Producing a feature is hard enough and trying to take on a challenging role, something that is somewhat different from my real personality, is stretching me even thinner. As a newcomer to the filmmaking world, I have big shoes to fill.
With that unpleasant struggle with my health for almost two years, I believe in doing what you want before it’s too late. Making a movie with a vegan film set is one of my ways to promote a healthy and cruelty-free lifestyle. It’s been freaking difficult and frustrating, but this is something I expected and am willing to put myself through. I’m an Aries-Taurus cusp if you believe in horoscope. I’m a doer that makes things happen. School helps you be more prepared for the challenges in your career field, but sometimes you just have to learn as you go on the job. I’m not an experienced producer or pretty actress that will make big splashes on the red carpet. What I’m trying to achieve is to tell people that we can do what we want if we set our mind to do it. I want to prove to myself that there’s still some hope to produce, finish and sell a truly indie, art film in Hong Kong. I want to make movies with positive messages that when the audience walk out of the movie theater, it gets them thinking a bit about their own situation and maybe even the world. The movie isn’t just about Sharon, Joan and Ryan, and how people get into trouble because of social media and their phones, but it’s also about these underlying messages and stories behind this film that I’m trying to convey.
If I were to increase the budget of this film, I may have cast and flown in a Singaporean actress to replace myself. If this movie wasn’t developed from a short film I was in two years ago, I would have detached myself from this project more. There are some things I would have done differently if I were given a chance to start all over again. Haven’t said that, I have to be thankful for all the obstacles I was given. We ended up having a more diverse cast, changing to a more compelling script and working with different sponsors and locations.
If my cast and crew are reading this, I want to thank you for your patience and support for Love Stalk 愛‧打卡. I want to especially thank those who came to talk to me last night and giving me suggestions on how to make this an even better movie.